Feb 17, 2012
As an aspiring writer, there are lots of days when many hours are spent gazing out the window staring blankly into space, searching my mind for inspiration. I try to interpret what I feel through my writing and my photography, however on days when I shed more tears then I would like to admit, and when I feel like an emotional mess, it can be very hard. I often sit on my bed with emotions I don't understand surging through me, and I wish I could have been born a boy so I could avoid all these feelings. Haven't we all thought this at some stage in our lives?
On days like this, the future seems distant, yet so close and it can be frightening. I see the mess the world is in and it's gloomy curtain hangs over my future like a storm cloud waiting to burst. I wonder, with uncertainty, what my life would be like if I was not born in to a christian family? Would I be a corrupt teenage girl messing up her life with drugs, alcohol and one-to-many boyfriends? I cringe at the thought. Why God has chosen to bless me so abundantly, I'll never quite get my head around. All I know is, he loves me and he knows what my future holds, he can see through the curtain.
11 For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the LORD, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future.